I am totally with Mama Kat on this one. I absolutely believe in “SIGNS,” and sometimes to the point in freaks me out a little. But most of the time it’s reassuring. I believe things happen for a reason, a purpose.
I have touched on this is little bit before. I married my high school sweetheart at age 23. We had been together for 10 years. Yes I did say 10 years, well technically we weren’t together for one year somewhere in between. I met him when I was 13. My parents got divorced and let’s just day I spent a lot of time at his parents house very early on for multiple reasons. My in laws were basically like another set of parents to me. Unfortunately my father isn’t with us anymore. He passed in March 2004. Now 8 years later I am still saddened as I had a closer relationship with my father in law than with my own father. It was like I was his only little girl, seeing my husband was one of three boys. He was always loving and regularly teased me.
Right after we got married we started trying to have our first baby. What seemed to come easy for many couples didn’t for us. We tried for 14 long months will no success. I had started on the first basic fertility treatment of using clomid. The first and second month it did nothing. We were going to try one last month before taking the next step. I will NEVER forget what happened next as long as I live.
My father-in-law had to go out of town on business. Unfortunately he never came home. He died! Not from a heart attack or even a car accident. It was worse in my opinion. He was out to dinner with people on business and had trouble swallowing a peice of food. He had walk out of the restaurant, where no one could help him. I’m sure because he didn’t want to be embarrassed and assumed he could cough it up on his own. I was devastating. We all were. I can see my husband’s deep despair and sadness as if happened yesterday.